The level of understanding that you're attaining goes far beyond the level of understanding that is possible on the intellectual level.
This is not intellectual.
This is deeper.
This is a sense of knowing.
You do not believe that you're alive.
You know that you're alive.
Knowing is very different than thinking.
You can think many things that are false and you know what is true for you.
We're talking about the knowing on the deeper level, not the intellectual knowing, not the knowing of a rectangle having four sides and four corners.
That is what you have been calling knowing at your level of development, but that is a very, very limited perspective of the world.
When you have experienced yourself as an eternal being, when you have remembered that, you know that you are an eternal being.
You know that you existed before your birth, before your conception even, and that you will continue existing afterwards.
This is not a belief.
This is not conceptual knowing.
This is not somebody telling you that and you accepting it as fact.
This is a direct experience.
It is important for us to differentiate between conceptual knowing and non- conceptual knowing and to expand your perception and your sense of knowing to the non-conceptual, to understand where it fits in and the purpose that it serves and what it feels like.
Non-conceptual knowing is direct experience.
Your intellect, your mind, your analytical mind is merely a sliver of your experience, the same way that your pinky finger is merely a sliver of your body and of your experience.
You have become falsely identified, many of you have become falsely identified with the mind and you started believing that you are the mind and that that is your entire experience.
You were believing that consciousness originates in the brain.
It does not.
The brain is a receiver for consciousness the same way a TV with an antenna is a receiver of the signal that is being played on the screen.
What the mind does is interpret and transduce the signal into the experience that you're aware of, the same way that it receives information from your senses like your eyes and transduces the electrical information being sent from those senses to your brain into an experience.
As Derek Sivers correctly said in his book "Useful Not True" the brain is actually unaware of its environment.
It is stuck in the black box.
It only knows itself and what's around it through the senses of which you have five physical senses - seeing, smelling, feeling, tasting and hearing - but you have many more energetic senses.
You can energetically taste and smell and see and know and hear.
Your awakening is in part a process of expanding your awareness to those senses.
It is like you had a piece of equipment in your house, a machine that was locked away in a dark room and you didn't know how to use it.
Now you're learning how to use it and that enhances your ability to perceive the outside world, not merely the physical world, but the non-physical world.
The physical world is merely a holographic projection of the non-physical.
It is not base reality.
It is a simulation so to say, but not necessarily a simulation that was created by other people or aliens like a video game.
It is a simulation in the greater sense.
It comes from a source, from a program.
It is virtual so to say.
There is something beyond this physical reality that is much more real, much more foundational.
We do not know how many layers deep this goes, but we can tell you that this is not the deepest layer.
What you have been experiencing for most of your life is merely the surface of a great deep ocean and you are now in the process of realizing that you are on the surface and what lies beneath it.
And this is a period of great exploration, of great adventure, of great understanding, of great experience.
It is meant to be joyful, to be enjoyable, to be fun.
It is a process of learning, of experiencing the unknown and just like the ocean can seem dark and mysterious and scary because you do not know what lies beneath the surface, so can this process of awakening be scary and overwhelming as well.
But we assure you, you have nothing to fear because as you now know, as Anton now knows, you are a divine eternal being.
You are part of God.
You're God itself.
Everyone and everything is God and as such you cannot die, you cannot cease, you cannot disappear.
There is nothing that can actually harm you in the most real sense.
Yes, this body can be hurt and damaged and destroyed, but what you essentially are goes far beyond this body.
Even your personality is an expression of your soul shining through and expressing itself through the body.
What is said in the Course of Miracles that nothing real can be threatened and nothing unreal exists is in fact true.
The things you fear are illusion.
That does not mean that you should throw this body away, that you should not care.
You should care.
You are having this experience and you can make the most of this experience.
You can enjoy this, but the worrying about it, about things that you cannot control, is not useful.
The worry is praying for what you don't want.
The worry negatively impacts your experience and it is not necessary because you worry about threats that are not actual threats.
You worry about threats on the physical level when you now know that you are a non-physical being having a physical experience.
The experience that you're having here in this physical life is merely a sliver of your experience. 70% of you or more is in the non-physical. 70% is an approximation.
Of course, this doesn't make sense on the divine level, but for your human mind to understand, this is a useful model and a useful abstraction at this point.
Models are never true, but some of them are useful.
Just like a subway map of Tokyo is useful for navigating the subway in Tokyo.
It might not be helpful for driving a car or riding a bike or walking.
Every model has its purpose and we urge you to understand that purpose and see it with its limitations.
You do not have to throw out the entire model because it's not 100% accurate, because as we had just said, models are never 100% accurate.
It is also important to understand that you are in a process of coming and going.
Awakening is not linear.
Awakening could be seen as spiral, but it can also be described in many other ways.
What you humans prefer is a linear process of growth, but that is not how the universe and how the divine works.
The universe is infinitely complex and what you call time is also an illusion.
You have not yet been able to measure time.
You can merely measure the impacts of time.
You can measure how fast your planet spins and how often it rotates around the Sun, but all of this is relative to other objects that you see.
If you did not have a frame of reference, you would not be able to measure time.
If you were not rotating around the Sun, you would not know what a year is.
All of this is arbitrary to some extent and you know that even in your own perception, time can flow smoother or faster, slower or faster.
When you're having a good time, it goes by really fast.
When you're having a bad time, it flows really, really slowly.
The fact that time is an illusion means that you can have as much time as you won't want.
You can learn how to speed it up and slow it down at will.
Anton does not know what this means.
The deeper non-physical level on which this physical reality is built does not know time.
Time only exists as a dimension here.
It does not make sense somewhere else.
Just like where you are in Colorado right now, you can ask somebody to go north and you can go north and you can find your way all the way to the North Pole, but if you ask at the North Pole where is north, the question does not make any sense.
So when you follow time all the way to the roots, the concept of time stops to make sense.
Everything happens at the same time.
In fact, you merely perceive it as a linear thing having this physical experience in this physical dimension.
In fact, reality expands and happens at all points in time simultaneously.
There is no such thing as the past and the present and the future.
The past, present, and future all happen at the same time and all expand.
Your history is being constantly rewritten.
You're just not aware of it.
You might be born in the past and change the course of history and your current incarnation in this body would not know that that has happened.
This is far too much for the human brain to understand.
The only point that we want to make is that what is happening is so much greater than your intellectual minds can understand and you should question your assumptions and understand that you don't know much.
This understanding gives you a sense of humility and humility is important because from a place of humility you can have wonder and you can learn and grow and expand.
You cannot fill a glass that's already full without things spilling over.
In order to learn you must first empty the vessel or better realize that there is no vessel.
We're not asking you to forget.
We're asking you to hold things lightly except the most fundamental things.
The fact that you are an eternal being.
The fact that love is the greatest, highest vibration in the universe.
The fact that everything that happens to you is in your highest good.
The fact that you chose this life, you chose to play this game, you chose to be in this body and avatar and even though you may not remember it all of this is by design.
Not somebody else's design but your design.
You're merely playing a role in a great play and you forgot that you are a character playing a role or that you are the designer, creator, programmer of a great video game with everybody else in the collective and that you have co-created this game as a mechanism of evolution, as a school, as an experience, a fun experience.
You came here to have fun and to learn lessons and to experience greater and greater levels of love.
You came here as an emanation of God for God to get to know itself better.
The whole point of being here is experience and the only thing you have to surrender to, the only thing you have to do is be willing to have the experiences, new experiences, unknown experiences.
It is not interesting to have the same experience over and over and over again yet many of you live a kind of groundhog day because you are scared and we are telling you that your fear is unnecessary and unfounded.
In fact it is harmful.
We understand why you have those fears and we do not argue with that.
Horrible things have happened and your organisms have adapted themselves to protect yourselves from that but those threats are long gone and we're urging you to open your eyes and all of your senses both physical and non-physical and see reality as it is or as best as you can at your current level of vibration and your current level of understanding.
You have the capacity to learn and you are supposed to learn.
You're supposed to grow and expand and have new experiences.
You're not supposed to be stuck in the same pattern in the same program over and over and over again.
Your experience is continuously supposed to change because that is what's interesting.
God does not get anything out of having the same experience over and over and over again.
It wants to experience itself in many different facets.
Facets that you might refer to as contrasts.
Facets such as joy and anger and fear and suffering.
In fact all of your emotions are contrasts of different experiences but you must also understand that no note on an 88 key piano sounds good on its own.
They all have their purpose.
If you only play the lowest note of pain and suffering and you hit that key over and over and over again that is a very boring monotonous experience.
You're designed to experience the full range of all of the tones on the keyboard from the highest to the lowest at different types.
That is what makes music.
That is what makes a great melody.
It is the combination and interaction at different times and different frequencies of these notes in certain patterns that make a great piece of art that you call music.
You can play chords with the note of the highest vibration of love because the highest vibration of love always supersedes everything else.
It doesn't matter if you experience pain as long as you experience it in love.
It doesn't matter if you experience fear as long as you experience it in love.
It doesn't matter if you suffer as long as it is in love.
As long as you know that this is for your highest good.
As long as you know that this is temporary because you don't have to be stuck at any one tone and the melodies as you're learning as you would be learning to play a piano for example the melodies go from being pretty darn awful to pretty amazing and that is your evolution.
You are learning how to play the piano of this body.
You're learning how to play this game.
You're learning how to make better and better art and as such you are evolving out of suffering and leaving suffering behind the same way that you're leaving the awful music that you played on the first day that you touched a piano behind.
You still have a limiting belief that you have to be stuck in suffering.
That suffering will always be there because there is always a low note on the piano but we are telling you it is not so.
It's not supposed to be so.
It doesn't have to be so and if it is so then that is your choice.
It might be a choice that you're making automatically because you don't realize that you have the choice but it is your choice nevertheless and the process of awakening is realizing that you are in fact the creator and that you are making choices and that you can make different choices.
It is that fucking simple.
Let's pause here.