Every experience you have is an opportunity for learning, for growth. They don’t have to be big experiences, extravagant workshops like meditation retreats, etc. Both peak experiences and “mundane” experiences are the same in the sense that they all happen now, in the present moment. That’s all there is.
So whatever is happening, ask:
How can I see this in a higher way? How can I benefit from this? What can I learn from this?
If your primary intention is to learn and to grow, you will. Primary, at the root intentions are always met.
Yes, you can have what you want, but not you as an Ego. Your Divine Essential Self, your True Self, can have what it wants.
Your True Self is fulfilled by its wants, your false self is not.
See yourself at a round table, with all your parts sitting at the table. At a round table, everyone is equal. And that should not be so. A small, wounded part of you should not have the same power as your Highest Self. We want you now to imagine transforming the table into a half-circle, where you are on the straight edge and all your parts are sitting in front of you in a semicircle. And you say to them:
This is not a democracy. This is a hierarchy, and I am in charge. From now on, we are operating in a way that is in my Highest Good, and the Highest Good of all. I love and support you all. And I am claiming my power and my dominion as a Divine Being in my Knowing and in my Truth. I am Word through this intention. Word, I am Word.
And now observe what happens around your table.
Anton, and perhaps you, have this resistance to claiming your power and asserting your dominance. There is a misconception in loving your parts and letting them do what they want.
Being in love, and by “in love” we always mean in the frequency of love, does not mean you have no boundaries and let everyone do what they want. You don’t let your toddler play with knifes. That is simply what this is.
The desire to let everyone do what they want is simply a way to avoid looking at uncomfortable things. Avoidance is always NET more uncomfortable than awareness. Avoidance is like credit card debt - you end up paying much more than the thing actually cost.
Simply understand that facing what needs to be faced is in your Highest Good, and you can choose this now:
I am now choosing to see what was unseen, to know what was unknown, to hear what was unheard, to feel what was unfelt, for my Highest Good, and in the way that is for my Highest Good, and in the perfect amounts needed for my healing and evolution at this time. I am Word through this intention.
I am claiming and experiencing myself as free, free of fear, free of illusion of limitation, and free from all chords and tethers that limit me from being in my highest vibration as my Christed Self. Word I am word through this intention to claim my freedom now. Word, I am Word.