Working With Intensity

Rather than saying what we want to say, we want to offer Anton the opportunity to ask questions.

How can I turn down the level of intensity when things are overwhelming?

You can consciously and directly ask for it.
You can ask your guides for help.
You can ask for it in prayer at the beginning of the day, to only get as much as you can handle.
You can willingly embrace it. The issue is not the power that is flowing through you, the issue is resistance. When you resist, pressure builds up, and intensity increases. The only two things that can happen are: A) decreasing the flow, or B) decreasing the resistance.

Ultimately, all of this is a lesson in surrender. Remember that it is happening for you. Remember that you can handle it, because you have been overwhelmed before and you are still here. You have successfully handled everything up to this point, which is evidence that you can handle this, too.

Focus on your breath.
Ask yourself how you can reduce the intensity.
Ask yourself what you want deeply. Do you truly want less intensity? Or do you want to be ok in the intensity?

Maybe a better question than how to turn it down is:

How do I enjoy the intensity? How do I enjoy what I am experiencing in this moment?

See, this question in Anton led him to remember:

I am aware. This is what I am aware of.

This is a great example of how your growth is driven by questions. These questions arose out of Anton’s overwhelm and suffering. So his suffering drove his growth. Growth is a good thing to him. Suffering is not.

But if something “bad” creates a good outcome, doesn’t that make it “good”? Yes, it does.

And good/bad are kind of irrelevant. It simply is what is. Judging it does not change it.

The question is: Are you dependent on suffering to grow? Is suffering your strategy? Do you believe that you have to suffer to grow? Or is there a more gentle way?

Yes, there is.

Simply ask for it in your prayer.

I want to grow with gentleness and ease.

Ask for what you want, not what you don’t want.

You want to enjoy the process of transformation, do you not? Yes.

We see in old embedded program in Anton that says it can’t be that simple. An expectation that things have to be hard.

There is a difference between accepting a hard situation and creating a hard situation.

You have the capacity to navigate life with grace and ease and enjoyment.

Could it simply be unfamiliar? The same way that escaping a war zone and moving to a safe abundance place could be unfamiliar?

Anton also thinks that he has to actively work on these patterns to lift them, but the work is different.

The work is collaborating with a higher power. You do not have to do this on your own anymore. Many of you who are driven believe that you have the responsibility to do all this.

We are telling you: Relax. All you have to do is your 50%. Parents do not make their children grow. Their responsibility is to love, nourish and protect them. The rest happens on its own.

Taking responsibility is different from being overly vigilant.

Too much involvement suffocates the other. In parenting, in a romantic relationship, in life in general.

You can pray to know your role and play it well. You can ask to be supported by a higher power. You can ask to do this work safely and sustainably, and to enjoy it.

What is my role?

Your role is to be conscious. Your role is to be present. Your role is to be aware of yourself as awareness. Your role is to be deliberate and clear with your intentions. That’s it, at the root.

Everything else, all the actions, practices, habits of transformation arise out of that. This is at the root.

You may say this if you wish:

I know who I am in truth. I am loving awareness. I know my role. I want to grow and evolve. I want to do so peacefully, safely, and gently, at the pace that is for my highest good. I want to be supported by a higher power. I want to enjoy the process. I want my life to benefit myself and others. I want my life to be for my highest good and the highest good of all.

Then you shall have it.

There is a sort of resistance in Anton to asking for what he wants. A negative association with desires. Many of you have this, too. There is nothing wrong with desire. Your negative associations are merely conditioning. We will explore that at a future point.

That is all.